I had a great childhood

                                           I grew up in Snoqualmie Valley

                                                       Tubing down this river

                                                         and doing stuff like this

                                         I drove past this everyday to and from school

                                            This is what our beaches looked like

                                                           and it was heaven.

Most people haven't heard of where I'm from, unless they had heard of Carnation Farms. (None of these pictures adequately show Snoqualmie Valleys true beauty.)

Well it's been another week, and it gets better every day.  My headaches and dizzy spells are slowly subsiding.  I think Matt's tired of hearing about it, but like usual, he's supportive, and still loves me, which I will be eternally grateful for.  The other big stress in our life is American Airlines filing for bankruptcy.  He still has a job, but they have blocked all overtime, which is basically how we survive.  To say my husbands been a little stressed out, is putting it lightly, but he's a trooper, and tries to have high spirits.  I am applying for a nanny job that's only two days a week and I can bring my kids with me, though two of them will be in school during that time.  When I spoke to the lady that I will be nannying for she told me her husband works for American too.  It really is a small world, though American probably employs have of the DFW metroplex! (That's Dallas/Fort Worth for you non-Texans).  Speaking of Texans, I was made fun of yesterday for pronouncing Greenville like it's spelled, instead of Green-voll.  Me and my proper english, oh well, I got them back when I told them I was from Seattle they said, oh you mean Warshington, I said no, there is no r in Washington.  This reminded me of my Aunt Evy, who was born in Washington, but still pronounces it with an r. Crazy people!

To Vent....

Well it's been a while since I've updated my blog.  I think I just needed a break, but now I'm feeling like I need an outlet again.  So sorry if this post is mostly venting.  It's kinda been a rough few weeks for us.  A little over two weeks ago we found out we were pregnant. It was a big surprise to us, though always welcome.  Then about five days later I started cramping and spotting.  I went into the doctor and they confirmed I was having a miscarriage.  They actually said it's what's called a chemical pregnancy, where an egg was fertilized, but didn't do anything after that.  It was hard and emotional, but was a little easier, I think, because we hadn't known very long, and also I had a strong feeling something wasn't right from the moment I started suspecting I was pregnant.  It was also easier this time around because I had my three little ones I could hug and kiss, and be thankful for, they really comforted me.  The other part of it that has been even more challenging is going off my anti-depressant.  The second I found out I was pregnant I stopped taking it. I had already weaned myself down to very little, but that last little bit has proven to be very challenging.  I started taking it three years ago after I had Ethan and suffered post partum depression.  I think it's been so challenging because I 've been on it for so long.  Emotionally I feel good, but physically it's been really rough.  At first I had such severe dizzy spells, where my heart was racing, and I felt nauseated, I had to lay down for two days straight.  Thankfully Matt was home to help or I don't know what I would have done.  Actually, I know exactly what I would have done, I would have had to call someone else for help, because I couldn't stand up, I couldn't drive to pick up my kids, or anything else.  Then after two days I started having longer and longer stretches of time where I could stand up.  It's been about three weeks now and my dizzy spells are finally starting to go away.  I still have moments where my eyes feel dizzy, if that makes any sense, but that's way better then my whole head feeling dizzy.  It's scary to realize how addicted my body was to those pills.  I'm so glad I'm finally off them, and am feeling so well emotionally.  Though, I do know that taking those pills three years ago was the right answer for me.  That was a very scary time.  But now the guilt is setting in.  I feel like I've been neglecting my kids needs over the last few weeks, and only doing the bare minimum.  I feel extra tired and grumpy, and I don't have the patience that I usally do with them.  I know my body is still trying to get back to normal, but I hate feeling this way. I just want to have all the patience in the world for my kids (and hubby).  I love them so much, they are my world.  Maybe that means I should go to bed now in hopes that I won't be so tired tomorrow, and can be a better Mama.  Thanks for listening, whoevers reading this, I love you.... Christina

Vintage Revivals: Hurdles

Vintage Revivals: Hurdles

I promise to be back soon!

Thanks for hanging in there with me.  I will be back to updating my blog very soon!  Love to all!

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Top 10 Things I am Thankful For

I got this idea from Stephanie Nielsen's blog, and decided it was a great idea. These are in no particular order. I am thankful for...

1. A little girl who lets me do her hair, sometimes for over an hour.

2. Family that comes to visit us all the way down here in Tehas!

3. That this astounding man asked me to marry him almost 9 years ago.

4. For all the men and woman and their families, that sacrifice so we can live in a free country.

5. For a husband that relishes being a daddy.

6. My sis-in-law. There aren't words to describe how much I admire and love this woman.

7. That my kids love each other so much. Even when they fight (which is often), they are best friends two seconds later.

8. A 21 month old who is already very interested in potty training.

9. For these wonderful people, who make my life better then I ever thought possible.

>10. For the temple, where families are sealed, for time and all eternity.

Please don't feel left out if you are not on this list. You are on my internal list, which I think of often. I promise to make a better effort in letting you know how truly thankful I am for all of you, and the service that you bless me and my family with, and the love, and friendship you offer us. Thank you.

All my love,

Christina